GIVING BIRTH

Each day of my life
I have the opportunity
to give birth
to new possibilities,
new ideas, and
new understandings.
However, first I must let go.
I have to declutter myself and
my inner space.
I have to get go of ideas,
beliefs,
explanations,
relationships,
and all that are cluttering
my mind and soul.
As I do,
I open myself up
to the possibility
of giving birth
to that which
will help me
grow and evolve
as I give birth
to new paths
in my journey.

THE EARTH

The earth births spring
The earth births summer
The earth births fall
The earth births winter

The earth has gone through trials
The earth has gone through challenges
The earth has endured
The earth keeps birthing

The earth inspires me
The earth keeps me growing
The earth inspires me to endure
The earth reminds to give birth

The earth is the earth
The earth is I am
The earth is me
I am who I am

ON THE DAY I WAS BORN.

Dear God,

As I finished reading Doreen Virtue’s book, Assertiveness for Earth Angels, I found myself thinking back to the day I was born. It was, as you know, not an easy time for my birth mother or me as we both almost died in childbirth. For the longest time I blamed myself at some level for the challenges she went through. At the same time, I missed the experience of feeling welcomed into the world and spent a good bit of time in my life feeling as if I just was not good enough. It was as if I blamed myself for not being Jewish enough for my birth mother and her family to keep me, not being black enough for my birth family and his father to take me. Then when I was finally adopted, I battled to feel Jacobson enough next to my brothers who were biologically my parent’s children. I remember my brother once telling me I was not a real Jacobson. I have had to work at releasing those feelings and realize that the near death experience I had as an infant was a central and key part of my life and of who I am today.

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